How do I apologize to someone for something weird when everyone involved is potentially crazy?

You are 21 years old and homeless and you are worried about what to say to a girl that you will see in a month. I would say the first thing for you to do is find a stable job and a place to live, and put this silly thing on the back burner until then. If you could show that you could live like a normal man, perhaps then you could prove to her once and for all that your a decent person that could be trusted, but until then, she will only keep thinking that you are a zero of a man and she will never trust you, it is simple common sense so try to use yours.